.mono[b]logue.

LDR

2011-10-28T10:40:00.004+08:00

My head tells me to start the weaning process- so separation would be easier to handle. But the heart says to spend as much time together as possible since I wouldn't be able to do so once I leave. This is my 3rd time doing the long distance thing. It really sucks.

five

2011-10-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

three!

2011-08-21T17:05:00.002+08:00

2011-08-08T21:15:00.006+08:00

to love is to risk

Replant

2011-08-08T08:47:00.002+08:00

There is something we all forget that only time and the perfect magnification of hindsight can replant in our memories: We are all so much stronger than the things we have endured. We must never give up. -Tyler Knott Gregson-

the joy of loving

2011-08-07T23:32:00.005+08:00

he allows me to love uninhibitedly

Just Listen

2011-08-02T15:32:00.002+08:00

"There comes a time when the world gets quiet and the only thing left is your own heart. So you’d better learn the sound of it. Otherwise you’ll never understand what it’s saying." — Sarah Dessen

2011-08-01T22:49:00.000+08:00

goodbye baby

and then it was two

2011-07-21T00:41:00.001+08:00

The Ultimate Sacrifice

2011-07-20T23:38:00.009+08:00

"And I'd give up forever to touch you, Cause I know that you feel me somehow..." Iris - Goo Goo Dolls Do you remember the movie, City of Angels? And how it ended? Such is God's great love for us. That He would give up His immortality to be mere human. Knowing full well that there would not be a 'happy ending'. So that we could perhaps come to know Him and love Him back.

2011-07-11T22:45:00.004+08:00

i used to wonder if i could give you the companionship you longed for

be here, now

2011-07-05T19:47:00.012+08:00

i have learnt that life is too short to not just live, even when it hurts

2011-06-30T18:35:00.001+08:00

2011-06-30T16:36:00.002+08:00

too careless, too playful; too young

the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return

2011-06-21T23:18:00.004+08:00

I had forgotten how it feels like to have someone genuinely love me and care for me.

in search of reprieve

2011-05-27T02:14:00.003+08:00

my life is out of control. i have allowed the world to consume me. nowadays, work and play dictates my every step. work i have learned that title and money means jack if you are to do the same shit, and then some. i don't know how the hell im coping- pushing meetings and deadlines. i live one day behind because there is only so much i can do in 15 hours AND try not to burn out along the way.

#happy

2011-05-21T08:10:00.005+08:00

The Human Experience

2011-05-19T03:02:00.005+08:00

How unique to this human experience that we all just wish to be the most important thing on earth to someone else. -Tyler Knott Gregson-

2011-05-06T00:29:00.005+08:00

Sure speaks volumes about my work when I voluntarily poison myself for an MC just so I can get some rest.

beautiful people do not just happen

2011-05-04T11:26:00.000+08:00

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen." — Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

2011-04-21T20:21:00.001+08:00

"I was afraid of looking into my heart... afraid of thinking seriously about anything. I did not want to know whether I was loved, and I did not want to admit to myself that I was not loved..." - Ivan Turgenev

2011-04-16T13:31:00.002+08:00

about last night... it shouldn't have happened i just got over you i feel miserable

Go

2011-04-14T02:08:00.004+08:00

Wrote this back in '05 when I was still studying in the UK. My soul's becoming restless again- it grows stronger as days pass. It's time to go, and go I will. *starts off a lil random- snippet from a post about feeling trapped i love art. i'm an artsy-fartsy person. i love.......................................................... unhindered by time and space i love being able to run free

2011-04-05T19:42:00.001+08:00

date an illiterate girl date a girl who reads date a girl who writes date a girl who blogs date a girl who runs

life's too short for regrets

2011-03-19T13:43:00.002+08:00

“We were never lovers, and we never will be, now. I do not regret that, however. I regret the conversations we never had, the time we did not spend together. I regret that I never told him that he made me happy, when I was in his company. The world was the better for his being in it. These things alone do I now regret: things left unsaid. And he is gone, and I am old.” Neil Gaiman

happy st. patty's

2011-03-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

Abstinence

2011-03-10T01:54:00.003+08:00

Lent is upon us. Have not observed Lent before although I tell myself yearly that I should (but I keep forgetting!) because I know it would be good for me. As a Christian, it is not imposed on us. However, most choose to do so. Things become easier, more likeable or more bearable when we choose to do something instead of it being forced upon us. I digress. Back to Lent. So this time I'm

the day i grew a year older

2011-02-27T23:59:00.005+08:00

and just like that, it has ended one significant day, which felt so insignificant

2011-02-20T01:00:00.001+08:00

my secret

not the one

2011-02-16T16:18:00.002+08:00

going through a difficult period right now. still am thankful for the good things that are coming my way in spite of. although, i was hoping for THAT ONE thing instead of the rest... am i asking for too much? i would gladly trade.

if words be the food of love...

2011-02-13T19:02:00.004+08:00

I'm such a sucker for writers. Dated one- too emo for my liking. Bah!

2011-02-10T16:13:00.000+08:00

it is moments like these that i wish i had someone to share my life with...

The Chinese New Year

2011-02-03T11:00:00.010+08:00

It's funny how reunion dinners, on one hand, serves to bring the family together and on the other, is a stark reminder of everything dysfunctional about the unit. Gong Hei Fatt Choy, peeps.

2011-02-03T02:48:00.007+08:00

My heart, it aches. It still does...

2011-02-02T00:22:00.014+08:00

hopelessness do you know the feeling... ? like having something pulled out from under you? that pit at the bottom you know is there but have not yet reached? arms flailing & legs thrashing about but nothing to hold on to- unresolve, ungrappable, unbreakable? and if you allow it to spiral downwards, you know you'll lose sight of the light? it is a dangerous feeling, far worse than defeat. it

Somewhere, Someone

2011-02-01T09:44:00.005+08:00

Somewhere someone thinks they love someone else exactly like I love you. Somewhere someone shakes from the ripple of a thousand butterflies inside a single stomach. Somewhere someone is packing their bags to see the world with someone else. Somewhere someone is reaching through the most terrifying few feet of space to hold the hand of someone else. Somewhere someone is watching someone else’s

random pics to document the past few weeks at work

2010-12-19T16:09:00.005+08:00

'to do' list grows as the day progresses 3-in-1 coffee to keep the body chugging along teatime: a father's love dinner with regional clients souvineir from gav from berlin xin wei's directions to klpac *epicfail cleverly volunteered to help in spite of the crazy schedule sitting at the ledge of the office balcony after a tiring week SOTU 2010 kicks-off gift from

2010-12-03T18:54:00.002+08:00

all in a day's work sometimes i feel like Andrea in The Devil Wears Prada 90% of my job deals with human error (mine included) never, ever, ever, everever assume for it will only make an ass out of u and me (a lesson i still have to learn after so many boo-boos) Q4 and Q1 are the worst period of the year. worst. i.am.exhausted. my phone usually decides to die on me, no, almost always

if only for the season

2010-12-03T01:46:00.006+08:00

gratitude

2010-11-26T01:57:00.001+08:00

2010-11-21T21:50:00.012+08:00

Today has been a good day of rest. Today has been a good day of reflection. Today I rediscovered the peace of God. Today I rediscovered my identity in God. Today I met my Father. Food for thought: Christian Atheist

i just want to say...

2010-11-10T03:04:00.050+08:00

i am amaze at how acutely aware i am of the hormonal changes taking place in my body. loosely put, i'm pms-ing. thing is, i would usually just allow myself to be emo without giving much thought to it and conveniently blame pms, of course. this is the first time ever that my mind is attempting to rationalise these emotions i am experiencing and gosh! i cannot understand it! there's no way of

what is? and what isn't?

2010-11-08T01:33:00.002+08:00

2010-11-02T00:54:00.000+08:00

Live Curious If you are, you breath. If you breath, you talk. If you talk, you ask. If you ask, you think. If you think, you search. If you search, you experience. If you experience, you learn. If you learn, you grow. If you grow, you wish. If you wish, you find. And if you find, you doubt. If you doubt, you question. If you question, you understand. And if you understand, you know. If you know,

i see me in her...

2010-10-28T02:40:00.006+08:00

What do you suppose it means when people say, "This is so you" when commenting on an object in reference to you? Are your feelings toward that statement a feedback of how you've been portraying yourself to others (or the reflection of people's expectations of you)? I am sometimes surprised at how much I open myself up to people. I don't realise that it puts me in a very vulnerable position.

when will the sun shine again?

2010-10-24T20:58:00.001+08:00

2010-10-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

Lord, please light the path.

2010-10-24T20:06:00.003+08:00

missing something

2010-10-16T23:31:00.001+08:00

'Just A Dream' - Nelly 'I was thinking 'bout him, thinking 'bout me, Thinking 'bout us, what we gonna be? Opened my eyes, it was only just a dream...' Edit: 17/10 'Change Is The Only Constant' I used to dream, the operative word being 'used to' because it was not possible- circumstances dictated it. So what do you do when you receive news that what couldn't have been before could

i feel...

2010-10-15T00:15:00.003+08:00

so much to say, so little time

2010-10-12T00:38:00.001+08:00

feels like that all the time

2010-10-10T12:16:00.030+08:00

self reminder: be patient and dig deep A conversation with a friend led me to see how much ungrace I've let into my heart. "To love a person means to see him as God intended him to be." - Fyodor Dostoevsky

For whom would this open to?

2010-10-08T16:07:00.002+08:00

Running in Sydney...

2010-10-06T03:44:00.017+08:00

Click to enlarge ... literally took my breath away. T'was awesome that *lc lived slightly more than 1km from Darling Harbour. Started out from her home to Pyrmont Bridge- where the harbour is at its full glory. Ran across the bridge till I hit the CBD. Quite an experience running through the bustling city; maneuvering around people, stopping at the lights, crossing roads and more often than

2010-09-22T15:56:00.002+08:00

2010-09-19T11:30:00.024+08:00

Faith 2006 - Jon & Jean's after party 2010 - Jon & Jean's first born, Jayden Joash Kee possibly the most precious lil' bundle of perfection in all of God's creation ~.~.~.~.~ Conversation over supper: Speaking my thoughts, I told Al that if I were to be pregnant, I'd want to keep baby safe in my womb, forever- giving birth meant exposing baby to the evil that is this world, which I am so

The Game

2010-09-09T18:30:00.002+08:00

If only it was simpler. I hate being pulled into it.

one year today

2010-09-08T00:12:00.000+08:00

It has been a year since you left... forever. Sometimes I find myself missing you but today, I caught a tinge of sadness. I used to hate the uncertainty of us. But I've come to accept that it was a choice I made then. Now, I'm just happy that we got to spend whatever time we had, together. Of all the years, this was the longest we were in the same place at one time- it was blissful. Thank

Foolish I Am

2010-09-02T00:53:00.005+08:00

Met some pretty awesome people over the past week. What stood out for me was that they were completely at ease with themselves, which in turn made me completely at ease with myself around them. During my drive home one Sunday, having spent the entire day with them, I reflected on the conversations we had and realised how little I knew. I was surprised (to say the least) not by the little

2010-08-30T09:50:00.002+08:00

patiently i will wait...

2010-08-25T08:16:00.009+08:00

The End. Hello Sunshine!

escape...

2010-08-22T19:16:00.000+08:00

untitled

2010-08-21T01:16:00.016+08:00

"Ladies:::This is the best quote ever!" -The Heart box (via @RevRunWisdom) I initially posted the above quote as a standalone, with no title (because I struggled to come up with an appropriate one). But something about it was bugging me, so I took it down. Now that I have the time, I shall speak my thoughts. See, when I first read the quote, I felt good about myself. And whilst it served

Onward

2010-08-18T20:03:00.003+08:00

Things I learn (more CrossFit talk)

2010-08-17T23:47:00.008+08:00

Having been ill the past few days, I took a break from running and only went to PM last Friday and Saturday. Since I already rested for two days, I decided that a flu was just a flu and went ahead with today's workout. Deadlifts are kinda my favourite afterall. WOD - 5 rounds for time of: 15 Deadlifts @40kg 15 Box Jumps @18" Today's Lesson: When you're sick and have yet to FULLY recover,

Speed Bump

2010-08-17T08:26:00.009+08:00

Lord, thank You for the people You've brought onto my path, to watch over me and to help me along this road called life.

'Soon'

2010-08-16T19:14:00.011+08:00

Feel so emo today. Reckon it's because I'm down with a terrible flu and a misbehaving temperature. Have not been sick for the longest time... And the last, I had someone to take care of me. Bah! I find it unhealthy to associate my feelings with certain occasions, which aren't necessarily significant. Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. - Proverbs 4:23

would you...

2010-08-15T14:37:00.001+08:00

Gracious One

2010-08-13T04:28:00.250+08:00

I've been thinking a lot about God lately, which is a good thing because it's easy not to, after I decided to leave. These days, every thing and every one I meet brings me back to the place I once belonged. I am seeing the world through the old me- no doubt the prompting of the Holy Spirit. Just the other day, I was so sick of listening to the songs repeating itself on radio that I switched to

Genting Trailblazer

2010-08-09T23:11:00.009+08:00

Okay, this made it into My 100 List only because I thought I wouldn't be able to participate this year, thinking that my Perth trip fell on the same day. And so, I've signed up, with David as my partner- first for the both of us. I think we're pretty psyched coz we started our training as partners after the WOD at PM just now. Haha. So gian. I asked Jinn if we needed to train for this and he

Good morning Starshine, the Earth says hello!

2010-08-09T06:03:00.003+08:00

(via a beautiful revolution) Click to enlarge

My 100 List

2010-08-06T05:28:00.039+08:00

1. jungle trek the Amazon rainforest in Brazil 2. visit the largest aquarium in the world 3. learn to dive 4. visit all 7 wonders of the world: - Eiffel Tower, Paris - Leaning Tower of Pisa, Pisa - Colosseum, Rome - Stonehenge, Bath - Great Wall of China, Beijing - Taj Mahal, Agra - Pyramids, Egypt 5. travel Europe on the EuroStar 6. keep a pet albino python 7. run the Penang Bridge

Someday

2010-08-04T06:27:00.004+08:00

close to my heart

2010-08-04T01:46:00.010+08:00

This was something I wrote 4.5 years ago. without You, i would not be in knowing You, i know myself what You've made me, that i now am not complete, but in the process of becoming what Your Word says, i will be; perfect and complete outwardly i wither, inwardly i grow thank you Father. Although I know this (in the head), I cannot recall what my experience with God was then. So much has

must learn to let go

2010-08-03T08:45:00.003+08:00

(via That Girl) Some things just aren't mine to keep.

Happy-Clappy

2010-07-30T17:45:00.006+08:00

You know the feeling? A little giddy, a lot of giggling and sometimes, slightly blonde? I feel just like that today. And I am happy =)

2010-07-28T01:01:00.006+08:00

I feel...

#songstuckinmyhead

2010-07-27T17:51:00.004+08:00

I am a firm believer of timing. I've said this before and I'll say it again- There is no such thing as the perfect person, only perfect timing.

Going Places with CrossFit

2010-07-26T05:28:00.022+08:00

I chanced upon this CrossFit website. It's an affiliate in an orphanage in India. I may sound slightly backward by saying this but I assumed CrossFit only existed in the more well-to-do parts of the world. Imagine my surprise when I discovered that there was an affiliate not only in an under-developed country but in an orphanage no less! I think this is awesome! Why? 1) Because CrossFit

2010-07-25T18:46:00.004+08:00

Aggro And then there are some people who *overthink things. Just say it already. And say it as it is. It is that simple, really. Why complicate things by saying complicated things? You may sound smart but what is if smart does not equate to any depth nor substance? See, consfue you, no? *I don't know how it's spelt. One word? With a hyphen? Or two separate words?

2010-07-25T13:13:00.001+08:00

How la?

2010-07-24T21:45:00.009+08:00

I visited a sports equipment store today and they had the machine to measure one's fat and muscle thingies. Apparently, I have 2 more kgs of muscles to gain (What they deemed is within the normal range. Any more and I'd have too much muskels. Rawr!) AND 7kgs of fat to lose. That is helluva lot to lose. 0.o PushMore, more?

Weights

2010-07-24T13:06:00.019+08:00

To keep track of my weights and to also record my progress. Bar bells Deadlifts @ 50kg Back Squats @ 40kg Front Squats @ 20kg Thrusters @ 20kg Power Cleans @ 20kg Over Head Squats @ 14.5kg Push Jerks @ 14.5kg Kettle bells Swings @ 12kg Single Arm Swings @ 12kg Sumo Deadlift High Pull @ 12kg Double Presses @ 8kg Snatch @ 8kg Clean & Jerk @ 8kg Double Push Jerks @ 8kg Dumb bells Push Press @

would have, could have, should have...

2010-07-17T01:02:00.004+08:00

I would have said yes to waking up with you every morning to catch the sunrise. If you'd have asked.

Alibibi & Cocobels

2010-07-16T01:20:00.006+08:00

You know how some people can just light up your world with their presence? Such are these two to me. <3

Knowing When

2010-07-13T23:32:00.008+08:00

Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop. - Meredith Grey

remember

2010-07-08T14:34:00.002+08:00

"The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you."

"Murph"

2010-07-08T00:45:00.006+08:00

Today's workout was pretty insane. Took me about 1hr 20mins to complete. It was awesome nonetheless. "Murph" For time of: Run 1.6km 100 Pull Ups 200 Push Ups 300 Squats Run 1.6km Random thought- I love running in the rain. It's the same feeling I get when I swim under the rain. Miss that.

What was it about following your dreams again?

2010-07-06T17:26:00.012+08:00

I just need to shout this out to the world coz I think it's way cool. A very good friend of mine has thrown in the towel to chasing the corporate life. Say buh-bye to creative briefs and clients' ridiculous demands coz she has resigned herself to doing the one thing she loves most- baking. She's only in her mid-twenties and to have the courage to side step and pursue her passion is awesome!

2010-07-06T10:41:00.004+08:00

Today, I forgot my phone. That's not the only thing I forgot. For the first time in my life, I forgot to brush my teeth. Gross! Edit: No one in the office has Listerine! Whhhhyyyyy?!

the frailty of life

2010-07-05T23:23:00.008+08:00

This is to remember uncle #1, who succumbed to lung cancer and passed on early this morning. Death in the family is so rampant that I’ve become immune to it. The last one was uncle #2, about 3 years ago. He lost his battle to throat cancer. (As you can tell, it runs in the family). As I was leaving for work this morning, I saw my dad curled up in a feotal position on the bed. He had his back

2010-07-02T19:15:00.007+08:00

The Archipelago Of Kisses We live in a modern society. Husbands and wives don't grow on trees, like in the old days. So where does one find love? When you're sixteen it's easy, like being unleashed with a credit card in a department store of kisses. There's the first kiss. The sloppy kiss. The peck. The sympathy kiss. The backseat smooch. The we shouldn't be doing this kiss. The but your

2010-07-02T03:15:00.001+08:00

2010-07-02T03:01:00.005+08:00

Talking to the ex. So not healthy.

The Ones Who Matter

2010-07-01T03:44:00.001+08:00

The older I grow, the lazier I am to make new friends. I don't mind acquaintances. That's easy- "Hello" "Goodbye" What I mean are friends who matter. Friendship, like any relationship takes work to grow and maintain and sometimes calls for sacrifices. I'm thankful for the ones who've stuck by me for the longest time- my circle of trust. The ones who've loved and accepted me for who I am even

C'est la Vie

2010-06-29T15:00:00.000+08:00

concrete jungle where dreams are made of

2010-06-26T09:29:00.003+08:00

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Inspiration

2010-06-19T17:49:00.003+08:00

Damn, I love CrossFit. Will join the PushMore games next year for sure.

Speaking of the World Cup...

2010-06-16T03:56:00.006+08:00

Forza Italia!! I've always supported the Azzurri's. This started way back in A' Level's, during the 2000 Euro Cup. Stuck with them since then. Anyhoo, am not here to talk about football per se. It's just that the previous World Cup bagged me a bf, which now is an ex- it was a bet he lost (to me). We met entirely through the world wide web. 'Twas an interesting avenue to have met someone. It's