.mono[b]logue.

Morning to You too, Lord

I suppose those of you who read my blog know that I'm not so ok. And this morning I found out something else which sort of added to the pain I'm already going thru. Which, is totally unrelated by the way.
Felt so numb... Have no idea how to explain the feeling. Even at that moment my brain was able to process my emotions and I thought to myself, "Wow, can somebody actually feel like this? The numbness? Like, I'm already hurting so much from ....... then something else hits me and I feel numb because I'm already hurting". I hope I'm making sense here.
Metaphorically speaking, my emotions / feelings became a sponge, soaking up the pain and x-tra pain and whatever else that is 'painful' I can handle cuz already feel so numb. Ok.. have no idea what I'm babbling about now. Reckon I should stop.

Back to the purpose of this post.
Went online when I woke up. Darn !! Shouldn't have installed internet, my priorities are all topsy turvy now. Still haven't clean the kitchen. Hahhaa.. ok what was I saying...
Oh yes, went online and chatted with a few people. That's how I became aware of 'the other painful news'. Anyway, remembered that I've not done my quiet time yet so I clicked on Our Daily Bread for today's devotional entitled --> Pain Is Not Pointless =)
Ahh.. I love the way God chooses to speak to me. It shouldn't come as a surprise that He does and does so in various ways. And, and I love feeling the warmth flood my whole body everytime it happens...
Love you too Lord, alot alot

God has a purpose in our heartaches—
The Savior always knows what's best;
We learn so many precious lessons
In every sorrow, trial, and test. —Jarvis

We will never be able to see His 'big picture' until it is revealed to us. Me and cy were talking about this last night, among other things ;P Like how we so know for sure that the hurts and pains we go thru are not done in vain. Tho I know it in my head, saying it out loud encourages me time and again. Of course this is when I'm in an ok state la. Telling me when I'm asking, "Why, oh why..." err, helps, but not really...

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