I've grown

I stumbled upon 'one of my journals' the other day (you know how some of us have tons of them). Actually this is a special one cuz it's or was my spiritual journal. Anyway, I was flipping through it and I came across a newspaper cutting entitled Please God, let it be me which, was stuck on one of the pages.

Here' s one of the excerpts from the article:
Always the first one with his hands out-stretched when the teacher decides on exercising some student participation in the classroom. Always the first one with highly-thought-provoking-yet-has-no-immediate-relevance answer in a friendly discussion among friends. Without fail, the one who has the overwhelming need to shower advice even when advice is not sought after or needed for the most part... And first and foremost, the town crier when it comes to making himself heard on all accounts.. and at all costs.

All of us have bumped into 'them' at least once. Some are able to tolerate 'them', others not so able. The thing is though, everyone is screaming for attention in this self-centered world, to stand out among the rest, to be the most unique rose among the many roses.
"Was I one of 'them'? I mean, isn't that why I pasted the article in my journal? It must have been me.. right?".
Well, not quite like that. I'm more of a 'background' person, the follower instead of the followed.

Another excerpt from the article which I highlighted:
We all want to have that moment of our lives, that fifteen minutes of Warhol's time. Even when we resound to smacking our lips with a thousand flushes of lipstick hoping for that moment when our plain old self will be elevated to that divine pedestal of beauty or when we struggle to lift that final dumbbell for that umpteenth rep, we want that moment to come while we are still young and able.
And if it doesn't, we will still press on with the heavenly benefits of facelifts, liposuction and that all-endearing doctorate or charitable foundation to make ourselves feel and think we are, in fact, special in every way.
One does not have to conduct himself in a particular way to afford such treatment nor do we have to bend over backwards to find assurance from others that we are indeed unique in their eyes because in truth, the only assurance we need to know is that we are hardly special, least of all in their eyes.

Obviously ! Everyone's so wrapped up in their little world they hardly have time to think of anyone but themselves. And even if you do get the attention, it's because they are threatened by you. And thus, the desire to compete with you, to outshine you.
It doesn't matter how we go about doing it, as long as we know that we are different from the masses.
I apologise for sounding like a bitch.
I hate that I was one of 'them', not so much of competing with others but the quiet one who also wants her minute of being 'noticed'. I despised myself.

But I thank God, for 'the few' who aren't like this.
For those who are humble.
For those who are compassionate.
For those who put others before themselves.
For those who are confident and secure, be it in God or themselves.

Truthfully, I was quite surprise with myself after reading the article.
I went like, "That was me... ?".

I thank God, for 'the few' that bumped into my life.
I thank God for removing the veil from my eyes.
And most importantly, I thank God for shaping me to be the woman I am today.

As much as I hate acknowledging it, I was that girl, the one who hid in the shadows praying for the torch to shine on her, just once.
But I've grown...



~ Matthew 6:1-4 ~

HUH !?!?

was my reaction when I read that Jean Todt and Michelle Yeoh are an 'item'. Apparently they met at the Shanghai circuit which, will debut their first F1 GP on the 26th Sept.
I'm not sure whether it's lucky him or lucky her...

Oh well, just to let you know what's up & about in the F1 world.

Ciaozz

10 things you didn't know about me

Shame on me

Ever since I started blogging, me and my bro have been 'fighting' over the comp. He wants to use it to chat with his friends on MSN and I wanna blog !

Before my 'blogging' life began, I hardly ever used the comp. I stayed away from it cuz I just didn't fancy gadgety stuff. I only used it to search for cases or if I have assignments to do. Oh, and also to check my e-mails, but that's like twice a month, max. Besides that, it's no no to internet and comps.

But these past few days were horrible. One of us will be waiting for the other to get off the comp. When it's my turn to use it and my bro hasn't budge yet, I'll sit right beside him and pretend to be nosy. Strangely, he becomes quite uncomfortable with this and will give in to me. He has tried this on me before but unfortunately or fortunately :P I couldn't be bothered. What's there to hide lerr? I'm only blogging. Nowadays though, it seems like he couldn't be bothered as well. Probably figured out my cunning ways ;)
By the way, the comp is in the study.

This is one of our 'heated' arguments over the comp:
C: "Eh Don, faster la. You use so long ade you know."
D: "Mmm, wait lar. That day also you make me wait wert."

10 mins later...
C: "Wei.. my turn ade la."
C: " Faster, faster, faster."
(I wasn't moaning ya, I was doing some pom-pom cheerleading stunt)

D: "Aiyah, okla okla."
Me --> :D
D: "Next time don't let me wait for 10 hrs ! See I never make you wait !"
Storms off into room.

C: "When did I ever make you wait for TEN HOURS?!?"
D mumbling in his room...
C: "What? What did you say?"
D: "I said, you make me wait damn long for you that day, you know !"
C: "I don't remember it being 10 hrs. And anyway, you'll get to use it when I go back to UK."
D: "How long more huh? 1 month is damn long you know."
C: " Eh, I'll be gone for 1 yr la. You can use as much as you want then."
"And sumore I don't have internet there k."
D: "Watever la, watever la !"
D slams front door of house.

I think that was two nights ago. Last night I was surprise cuz my bro came back and he didn't came upstairs and 'fight' for the comp. Yea, I was online. Anyway, when he came upstairs I caught his eye but he just went into his room and took a shower. He went out for dinner, came back and I was still on the comp. He didn't say or do anything but instead went straight to his room. I didn't see him come out at all.
"Hhmmm.. nvm, good for me."

Today, our 'timetable' didn't clash. Thank God. I woke up earlier than him, used the comp and was done before he woke up. I came back online about 3 something. My bro went lunching with his friends. I was still using the comp when he got back. I didn't budge cuz he didn't ask me to. And I wasn't even doing anything online - no tv means boringg. I know I should be studying k :)
"Hhmmm, what's he doing downstairs? How come he never ask to use the comp?"

And then I heard my bro tuning the guitar !!
You have to understand something, hearing my bro strum the guitar's really, really rare. He must be soo bored out of his mind without a tv that he's playing.. the guitar. And here I was nicely sitting upstairs, online doing nothing and wondering what in the world is up with my bro. Finally I got bored with the comp and turned it off. Decided to go kacau my mum in her room. Told her "Don must be soo bored out of his mind... playing the guitar now." She was shocked herself. She asked me whether I was done with the comp, I nodded and then asked me to tell my bro so he can use it.
"Don, I not using the comp anymore."
"Oh okay."
I heard some shuffling downstairs and then he came up and plopped himself in front of it.

This puzzled me a little, although it shouldn't.
Where was the fella who 'argued' with me the other night?
EITHER
1 - he's playing another 'ball game' altogether ie me hogging the comp and he not saying a word and me feeling bad and pitying him
OR
2- he thought what I said the other night made sense ie me going back to UK and him having the comp all to himself

I seriously think it's the former. It could be the latter as well cuz my bro really is a nice guy. But you know what ! I shouldn't even be thinking about this at all. The fact that he's my only brother isn't enough, he's my one and only YOUNGER brother and I have to 'argue' with over such a small thing.
Sharing is caring and my younger bro giving in to my nonsense made me realise what a selfish sis I am.
Am I not the older one here?
Shame on you Chel !!

"Don.. you wanna use the comp?"

I'm so dead

This is horrible !!

The fact that I woke up by myself at 11:21 am this morning kinda surprised me. It's super early la considering that I get up about 3+ pm almost everyday. I usually only wake up early if I have stuff to do. And that also my mum has to bang on my door a few times.

Anyway, as you can see I'm addicted to blogging :) which, is also quite surprising. But that's another thing altogether.

Now I know why I suddenly woke up early lerr.. It's probably God. I just received a phone call from British Council telling me that my Tort exam is on the 25th ie NEXT freakin' WEEK !!!
And here I was thinking it'll be end of Aug.. end of Aug...
You see right, if I've been sleeping I wouldn't have bothered picking up the phone, not that I can't hear it cuz I'm a light sleeper but I'm just plain super lazy to roll off my bed. I mean the call might not even be for me so why spoil my beauty sleep. Oh yea, and nobody's home so I would let it go on ringing and ringing and ringing.
However, if my mobile rang I would know it's for me and would immediately answer it. Also, it's just a 'hand-reach' away ;)

So, thank you God for getting me off the bed so that I would answer the phone and KNOW that my exam's NEXT WEEK !! instead of not picking up the phone and continue thinking that it's in 2 wks time. I only have 1 wk to prepare !! Hahhaa I soo asked for it man !! The 'cram everything inside last minute' girl.

Ciaozz.. I've to hit the books. Yea, against my forehead ;P

My so-called life

1982
26th Feb
Mum decided to stay over at Pantai Medical the day before giving birth to me. She was wheeled into this room (she prefers not to share) which, was at the hospital's old wing. When she entered the room my mum immediately asked them to put her in another room cuz she felt there was something 'spooky' in the room.
27th Feb
Came out from my mum's womb the next day about 4+ in the evening. Yay ! A baby girl.. Whom, according to my mum was the ugliest baby she'd ever seen. But she loved me anyway cuz I was her daughter.

1983 - 1984
You know how it is that you can't remember anything when you're really young. Okay so I don't remember much but mum said that she couldn't play 'dress-up' with me cuz I didn't look like a girl and I wasn't a boy so, I wore jump suit all the time.

My family moved from DU to DJ. Been living here ever since :)

1985
This is the year I had an extra family member. Don't know how I remember this, given that I was only 3 yrs old, but I saw my brother at the clinic where he was born.
5 days later, it was Christmas. Yay !! A very joyous occasion at my grandpa's.
And me still in jump suits.

1986
A couple moved into the house next door which, coincidentally has a daughter my age and a son my bro's age. This is where my 'neighbour-for-life' life began.
Introducing Yoong and Meng.

1987 -1988
My kindergarten yrs. It was called Tadika Utama in TTDI.
I remember being punished once. Can't remember for what but I had to stand on the table till after school :(
Unknown to me then I made a friend, Yin who also happens to be Yoong's childhood friend.
My favourite was Maggie Mee - chicken flavour during our break.
Performed Dikir Barat at my concert.
Graduated from kinder.

Me and my cousins were flower girls for my aunts wedding. She married a HK guy. His family came down for the wedding. Each of us were paired up with a guy (fr his side of the family) and we had to hold hands with our partner. Eewww.. kooties !! The guy I was paired up with is 3 yrs older than me. We were really shy and all but this was the first time I had a crush. I remember telling myself that I was gonna marry him. Heheheh.

1989
Std 1
Was enrolled into Sekolah Sri Petaling (SSP). The dreaded first day of Std 1. Met my best friend on the 1st day of school, Mandy. I was even more thrilled when I discovered that she lived just a few rows down my road.
She changed my life forever, and sadly she will never know about it.

My grandpa died of a heart attack. Although I was too young to know what was going on then, I knew I would never see him again. Love him sooo much. I'm so thankful to have a grandfather like him. I still miss him. Wish I could tell him how much he meant to me.

1990 - 1991
Std 2 & Std 3
Found out that Mandy attended Trinity Methodist Church every Sunday and I wanted to go so badly. I woke up extra early one Sunday morning and jumped on my parent's bed to wake my mum up so that she would take me.
What's better than going to church with your best friend right :)

1992
Std 4
Mandy had a crush on this guy in our class. New kid I think. Anyway, things got weird because she found out that he liked me and she was angry at me. Had no idea at first. All I knew was he kept irritating me. Can't remember how I knew he liked me but I was flattered of course ;) Still didn't know why Mandy was always so cold towards me until someone told me. Losing a best friend over a guy? NO WAY maN ! But I think that was when she had other 'best friends'.
*Sigh* Typical.

1993
Std 5
I was in this 'group' thingy. You know how we moved in packs. Hahhaa I mean cliques. There were about 5/6 of us. Don't remember. There was Sue, Letch, Fi, Mandy, Jin, and me.
Mandy and her family migrated to UK at the end of Std 5. Her dad was offered a job there.
Oh, did I mention that Mandy's a genius? Yeah she is. Anyway, I was really sad and all.

1994
Std 6
Became really close to Sue. Went to her house after school everyday. Her driver would pick us up and my mum would come get me after work. Had lotsa fun with her.
However, there was always this huge conflict in our 'group' - 'this one will friend that one and that one don't wanna friend the other one' kinda thing. It was horrible because if you're stuck in the middle you have to choose.
Was suppose to go to Gold Coast with Sue and her family but because of 'one of those' conflicts I didn't go. I even made a visa.

1995 - 1996
F1 & F2
Went to Sekolah Menegah D'sara Jaya (SMDJ). Saw lots of fimiliar faces. Some from SSP and others from SRK DJ2. I knew some from the latter group cuz Yoong studied there.
I met my new best friend in F1, Yen. We were very close and she lived nearby too.

These were the worst yrs of my schooling life. The 'group' conflict also happened here. I guess it was a new school and people were trying to make new friends, trying to fit in and stuff.
I regret everything I've done to mess up my friendship with Yen.
Yen if you're somehow reading this, I'm truly sorry for the hurts and pains I've caused you.

Swam for school in MSSD.
Joined Latin dancing with Yoong. And met crazee Win-Ni there. Just lurve her :)

1997
F3
Was in the same class as Linda. She happens to be Yoong's very close friend in primary school. I knew her but not that well. As time went by we became the bestest of best friends. I knew that I couldn't make the same mistakes as I did with Yen. Linda taught me lots about friendship. I remember people going like, "If you see Linda you'll see Cheryl, and if you see Cheryl you'll see Linda". That was how close we were. And, she lived 3 mins away ;)
Hhmmm.. I just realised that all my best friends live near me.

Competed in my very first and last Medalist (dancing competition).

1998 - 1999
F4 - F5
Although Linda was in a different class, we were still very good friends.
Yoong was finally in the same class as I was. I really enjoyed myself here. The people in my class were a friendly lot and the teachers just loved us. I'm serious. Cuz maybe we weren't the naughty class but the cheeky one ;)
Here is also where I met my 'friends for life' friends.
I truly thank God for Yoong and Jays.

My uncle passed away due to colon cancer.
Started attending another church, DUMC. My cousin brought me there. Was really blessed by my CG and Youth Pastor and Aunty Kelly :)

Went to Osaka for a Student Exchange programme when I was 16. Had a wonderful experience.

Another addition to the Low family. Named my cutie lil' doggie Angel. He's really an angel.

2000 - 2001
Went to Taylor's to do my A' Level's.
Yoong was doing CIMP at Sunway but later came to Taylor's to do SAM.
Jays did CPU at Taylor's too.

Enjoyed my class very much. Fun bunch of people. Made lots of really good friends - Jings, Zee, Elaine, Serene, Jem, David, Chern Yen, Asha, Suzanne, Bee Wei, Al...
Was really sad when Elaine left for Italy.

Went to Tekam (can't remember where it is, somwhere in the jungle) for a class trip.
Took up Weng Chun with Serene for awhile. Went rock climbing practically every once a week with Serene at Summit.
Started to be an F1 freak thanx to Big B and Schrufesberg.
Flunk my finals. Re - took my exam in Nov.

Stopped going for CG cuz it was difficult to fit in.
Found the love of my life at DUMC... *060901*

2002 - 2004
Enrolled into Kemayan ATC to do law. Was really upset at first cuz it was all the way in Petaling Street. Came across as a bitch and an anti-social. There were only about 12 people in my class. My first friend was Lindy. After 3 whole weeks of not speaking to anyone, she introduced herself. I had my lil' clique as time went by. Me, Lindy Ling and Joey. Joey left to UPM a few months later.
Went to Red Box with Ling and Lindy quite often. We sang our hearts out ;P

Michael shifted to our class. Became good friends with us. My study buddy when our exams were drawing nearer.

Was really honoured when BK asked me to become a CG Leader Intern, together with Charm and Deb.

Went to Melb with Ling after the exams. Stayed at Serene's while I was there. Had a great time. Met up with Jays and Yin. Party, party, party...
Things changed when I came back. Hurt the person closest to my heart. Wish I could turn back time. There's only regret, regret, regret... *060903*

20 and 21 were the best years of my 22 years of living. Up until Aug 2003.
*Sigh* No good thing lasts forever...

Competed in a dance competition held at Shangrila. Women's event. Partnered with Charissa.

Enrolled into Uni of Northumbria in Newcastle. Left for UK in Sept. Didn't like it there one bit. Learned how to depend on God.
Went for Nottingham Games. Met Josh and Young Lee and Elaine's friend.
Made a really good friend from Cyprus, Angeliki. Thank God for her cuz I wouldn't have survived without her. Different culture but one mind :)
Came back to M'sia in Dec for C'mas hols.

2004
Mum followed me back to UK in Jan. Really liked having her there. Cleaning and cooking and stuff. Hehhehe.
Celebrated my b'day with a few friends. Thanx for the wonderful cake PC.

God sent friends to help me with my walk with Him. Will forever be thankful for Biona and CY. Went to Spring Harvest. Enjoyed myself tremendously. Took pics with Tim Hughes. Hahaha.

Am back for summer vaca. 4 whole months. Yippie ;P
Met up with a few friends from Taylor's and ATC.
Brought CY along for CYZ camp. Been hanging out with her quite alot. Another 'friend for life'.
Have loads of fun playing board games with her and her college mates.

Have to sit for my Tort paper though :(
And will be going back to UK on the 26th of Sept :(

HTML??

Gosh !! I had the most horrendous time trying to 'beautify' my blog. I've seen a few blogs and they look rather interesting, with 'extra stuff' on the side bar (I just found that out).
And I was like "Ooo I want that too" which, of course was before I figured out how to do it.
I was clicking on everything that was click-able.
"Hhmmm.. settings? *click*click* no.."
"Postings? *click*click* no.."
"Aaarrgghh !! How do I do this??"
Guess I finally 'clicked, clicked' on the correct button - Blogger Help. Hahahah.. how hilarious.
Okay.. lets fast forward a little...
I found out that I had to type these funny looking '<-t><:h=i_> n:/<+g><"ys>' somewhere but I had no idea where. I actually created a new post and 'cut & paste' in under 'Edit HTML'. Well, at least I was smart enough to know that it was some HTML thingy although I still haven't got a clue what HTML is.

Anyway, I woke up this morning and being the 'ambitious' me (ahhaha), I wanted to add more stuff to my blog. Went straight to Blogger Help. Read.. read.. read.. And.. "Huh? Template? What template?"
Then.. Revelation !!
I supposedly had to edit my template and slot in those funny looking HTML thingys. With my new found knowledge, I clicked on 'Edit Template' and went on to do what was necessary to make my blog look not so bare ;P
By trial and lots of lots of error.
There's this one time where I wanted to re-arrange some stuff on my side bar but ended up deleting the entire middle section of my blog instead ! Hahahah.
Thank God for the 'Preview Template' button but.

I'm quite surprise with myself. I actually had the patience to sit down and learn how to do a little programming (if that's what it is called). I mean as far as I'm concerned, I have no interest whatsoever in computing and programming and etc.
I then realised that if I want something so badly, I would go all out to get it even though I make mistakes along the way.
I bet you're going like "DuH, heard of the phrase - if there's a will, there's a way".
"Of course la, who hasn't". I bet your parents first said it to you. Cuz mine did.. I think. ANYWAY...
How come I do not have the same kind of enthusiasm when it comes to my studies?
"I also want to get all A's for the papers I sit for what".
This exact moment is a clear cut example of how 'enthusiastic' I am about my studies. I have to sit for an exam soon and what in the world am I doing??
"Ooo I want to decorate my blog"?? Bullocks !!

This is where I say GOODBYE.


Oh not so fast ;)
If any of you kind souls out there are willing to give me some HTML 'decorative' tips, please feel free to do so ;)
Thank youuu...

Christianity in a comic strip

I just visited a website by this Korean guy.
Double-click on Dong Haeng and be blessed.
I especially liked the one on 'Distance' and 'Love'. 'Duty' is really heartfelt.
Enjoy..

p/s: Tot's your mum would love this.

Friendster - evil??

T seems to think that Friendster is the work of S.A. Tan. That this is one of his many ploys to draw our attention away from God by stimulating us visually and.. I kinda agree with T.

Hear me out...

I'm aware of the advantages provided by Friendster - search for long lost friends over the internet, share information with one another, get to know people better. It's a great tool to use when you want the attention of a specific group but you're just too lazy to search for their e-mail addresses. A high school reunion, for example. You even get to post pics of yourself so that people can see how you look like.
This is an opportunity to upload pics and post them on the internet.
Think about it.. How often do people get to view pictures of themselves on the internet?
Unless of course they are either models or those 'porn girls' which appear on those XXX websites. And probably only a handful have online photo albums.
Now, most would try to search for any decent looking pictures they have of themselves and start uploading onto their Friendster homepage. Some of them are jokers =p Then there are those who just don't bother. And I'm pretty sure a few would go thru the hassle of clicking away on a digi cam or web cam or whatever other cams which, enables them to transfer pics onto a comp.

At the beginning I especially enjoyed looking at my friend's pictures and my friend's friend's pictures. I guess that was what I did when I had nothing else better to do. And then I would go like "What a small world..." kinda thing.
Anyway, as people get more involved in Friendster their pics become more err.. revealing.
Note: I'm not generalising here. I have come across a few and am merely stating my opinion.
It's only human to want to dress to impress, especially girls (I do that too, at times *grin*) and I don't think there's anything wrong with that unless.. you show more than you're suppose to. This is the very thing that S.A. Tan uses to distract us from God. Sexy poses and wearing not alot of cloth will definitely incite feelings of sexual arousal in some guys. And to me that's not very healthy.
You, reading this would probably think that I'm a freak of some sort since the world is a-okay with exploiting women's body and what not. I've been guilty of dressing inappropriately too. But I have learned that it not only causes our 'brothers' to stumble but people do not respect us because of the way we clothe ourselves. Who in the world doesn't want r.e.s.p.e.c.t?
Anyone can dress up decently and STILL look amazingly good.
Look at Mariah Carey before she divorced 'Mr. Head of Sony Music guy'.
Don't you want to keep your dignity?
Please forgive me if I have offended you at this point.

However, my perspective of friendster being one of S.A. Tan's project sorta shifted when I saw the title 'I am a believer' under the Friendster Bulletin Board posted by Chee Ting.
I double-clicked at it and this appeared.
Message: Christianity Understood
The next time someone says............"I thought you were supposed to be a Christian,"
keep this in mind:
When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not shouting "I'm clean living!"
I'm whispering, "I was lost; now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say "I am a Christian"... I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble, and need CHRIST to be my guide.
When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak, and need HIS strength to carry on.
When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed, and need God to clean my mess.
When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not claiming to be perfect,
my flaws are far too visible; but God believes I am worth it.
When I say "I am a Christian"...
I still feel the sting of pain, I have my share of heartaches, and so I call upon His name.
When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not holier than thou.
I'm just a simple sinner, who received God's good Grace, somehow.
Share this with somebody who already has this understanding, as reinforcement.
But more importantly, share this with those who do not have a clear understanding of what it means to be a Christian, so that the myth that Christians think they are "perfect" or "better than others" can be dispelled.

Inspired by the message, I copied and pasted it under a new title 'I am a Christian' and posted it on the Bulletin Board. And the very next day, I recieved a message by JDMS asking me what it means to be a C+ and what do C+s do !!
Do you know what this means? This means that I didn't have to approach someone to tell him/her about Jesus which, I personally find quite challenging.
God made it so easy for me. He sent someone to me instead of me go looking for someone. Therefore, eventhough I still agree with what T said, I believe that the Lord has the whole world in His hands.
He is the One that defeated death and is the Risen King.
He is the One that takes past hurts, painful experiences and turns them into blessings.
He most certainly can make Friendster a 'sharing the Gospel' site despite the 'flashy, showy skin' part.

Amen !

By the way, I just read a very interesting write up bout what I've been discussing. Head over to The Malaysiana Pings Enjoy :P

TV addict - epilogue

I promised myself to complete mizying's way overdue b'day art & craft thingy when I woke up today. I got my tools out and went downstairs to continue my handiwork when I realised something looked hhmmm.. different. Hey, what's up with the tele? Or to be more exact, what's out of the tele?

Apparently the 'Toshiba guy' decided to make an appearance this morning. My mum told me that he checked the tv but couldn't find what was causing the problem. He then went on to unscrew some stuff and removed some other stuff from the tv. He said he needed to take the stuff he removed back to Toshiba to repair it. The worst part is, it will only be ready in 2 WEEKS time !!!
2 WHOLE weeks !!!
I'm not gonna be able to watch Buffy and F1 and the Olympics, tho I'm merely interested in the opening and closing ceremony ;) and CSI and 24 and Amazing Race and Wade Robson's Project and and and Smallville's starting on Thursday =(
*sniffles*
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Okay.. back to mizying's gift.
Eeeks, I'll be seeing her tomorrow.

TV addict - revised version

This entry which I 'cleverly' deleted was posted on the 7th Aug 2004 @ I don't know what time. I will try to present it the way it was originally. Stupid CheL...

I'm embarrass to admit this.. But I'm a tv addict. My daily routine is - wake up, watch tele, eat while watching tele, watch some more tele, have dinner and watch tele, watch tele till I fall asleep. If you're a math-fan, try multiplying this by 2 months + 10 days ie since I came back for summer vaca.

Is it because I was deprived of a tv the whole time I was in UK?
Hhhmm.. Am I trying to justify myself?

So, how did I come to realise this?
I know, I know.. It may probably seem obvious to any Tom, Dick, Harry, Mary, Jane and Sue if I were to tell them how I spend my holiday.
But heyy ! That's beside the point.
The point is the idiot box sitting against the wall right in the middle of my living room ain't workin' no more. And that is real sucky.
Why? Cuz I simply have nothing to do now. Even my mum says that the house is so quiet without the tv blasting in the background. She reassured me by telling me "the Toshiba guy will come in the morning to fix it". Hah ! What nonsense ! That was the day before yesterday mind you. Doesn't 'the Toshiba' guy know what responsibility is?
I'm missing all my favourite programmes !!
Pissed-off is how I feel and you would be too if you were me right? Right?

Hence, thanx to mizying's wonderful idea, I have decided to fill my time blogging away...
And then I realised (yea just what I need, 2 realisations in a day) that it is difficult for me to construct sentences. Not so much to do with words but more to do with typing proper English. If I were to write this down on my journal I most certainly will use crappy words which, so-called make up the English Language.
But why do I feel obliged to do so here? Is it just because you will be reading this? You know what, I have no idea. Heck, as long as I'm satisfied with the end product right?

What do I do when I'm not busy cracking my brains trying to construct proper sentences?
Aha.. This is where I thank God for my oh so reliable IBM laptop which, I incidentally watch DVDs on. So, while my family tries to keep themselves occupied during their 'tv time', I'm nicely shacked up in my cozy lil' room feeling all warm and fuzzy under the duvet watching the whole season 3 of CSI, thanx to Tots. And.. munching away of course ;)

Aaarrgghhh !!!

Shoot !! What happened to my 'TV addict' piece???
I'm sooo bodoh !! That was my first ever entry and I, being a smarty pants decided to 'test out' the delete button thingy...
I'm super angry with myself !!
My first ever post which I had my first ever comment.. And it's GONE !!! Nooo...

Stupid cannot even begin to describe me
*sigh* oh well, maybe I might type it ALL out again. If I can remember what nonsense was in it.

Okay. I'm done whining and beating myself up.

GoSH !! CheL !! You're so so STUPSssss...
What were you thinking...

Crouching Tiger, Flying Daggers

I don't usually go to church on Saturday nights. Yesterday was an exception cuz I was going for a midnight movie and I didn't want to go to church on Sunday morning feeling all tired and drowsy and not paying attention to Pastor D's sermon.

I guess we (me and tots) didn't realise that since church ended at 10:30pm, we had a full hour to waste before picking William up for the movie. So what do we do? Like all typical M'sians we or rather he decided to fill his tummy. I, on the other hand am on a diet ;) Anyway, he drove to SS 2, saw Sugar Bun and said "Let's try this new place. It's very famous in Sarawak". So we went in, he ordered while I nicely seated myself down watching MTV. *all smiles* Hey, it's been awhile.

He's done eating but we are still seating there. It's like 11 something already and I'm sure the staffs are waiting for us to get our lazy arses up and going so that they can pack and go home. But nooo.. Tots thinks that it's still early to get William. So what do we do? Continue watching Beastie Boys in action with me feeling embarrassed and Tots oblivious to his surroundings.

Yay, and we are off.. finally !!
We picked William, drove to BU, looked for parking and met the others outside the cineplex.

I usually don't bother getting popcorn and all that stuff not because I'm on diet but I'm just too lazy to queue up behind a long line of homo sapiens. Tonight though, I needed to quench my thirst. I hopped in line waiting to get to the counter. A minute later I couldn't believe my eyes when this Malay couple decided to play 'cut queue'. They were about to nicely place their bodies in between me and the person standing in front of me. How dare they !! I gave the Malay guy the 'DJ stare' (so says Tots) and closed the gap. He looked at me, clearly not bothered to be civil and stood right behind me. It would be ok if I was last in line but there were about 3 people behind me !! I was so pissed. I looked at the guy who was supposedly behind me and then at the Malay guy. I was actually doing this back and forth and back and forth without realising it. Hahahah.. What was actually running in my head was "Why in the world are you (look at the guy) keeping quiet and letting this shorty (look at the Malay guy) cut your queue?". I soo wanted to say something but then I decided to keep my mouth shut.
Why? I guess the guy could speak for himself if he wanted to. I would speak up if the Malay fella was standing in front of me. So I let it go, got 2 bottled waters and met the others.

Ooo I can't wait to see Takeshi. Isn't that why I went? I didn't think much of Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon. I mean if all they were going to do was fly around and do flying stunts, why not watch the good looking guy do it. Boy, was I wrong. I guess I unintentionally associated Crouching Tiger with Flying Daggers thanks to Zhang Ziyi. Then I found out the same director directed Hero. Ooo ok. I've not watched that one yet.
Anyway, I really enjoyed the movie, in an artistic kinda way.
I love the way the director played with the colours, how he colour contrasted the character's clothes with the background scenery. So beautiful.
I love the fighting scenes. As if they were dancing. The timing was right, they moved in sync, all perfectly choreographed. I especially like the bamboo fighting scene - first Zhang Ziyi alone with the general's soldiers, then she and Takeshi with the soldiers.
Although there were flying scenes (very little - 3 the most), they flew more realistic compared to the other flying movie.
The twist was good. They are not who they say they are and it's quite unexpected when all is revealed.

Nearing the end however (yes there always is a 'however'), it started to become corny. It started when Takeshi and Andy Lau fought with each other in this huge field filled with wild daisies. They were 'clinging' and 'clanging' their swords from autumn.. till winter. What nonsense !! I guess he was trying to play with colours again. He should make it more real la.

As if that's not bad enough, Zhang Ziyi had to wake up 3 or 4 times after she has supposedly died. The first time, everyone paid attention to what she was saying to her lover, Takeshi. After that the cinema was filled with laughter every time she opened her eyes. The loudest was when she got up to her feet !!

*sigh* it was all good until the director guy had to go mess it up. The plot isn't so good either. Don't let the title fool you (if you actually know what it means) cuz it's basically a love story. When you think about it though, it has been awhile since a love story was screened.

I found out that I do not enjoy romantic movies. Surprise, surprise.. But I never really took myself for the lovey dovey kinda girl anyway.

Well, I can't say I was disappointed cuz Takeshi Kaneshiro is gorgeousness. And although I don't think Zhang Ziyi is all that, she depicts a rare beauty in the movie. Eeerr.. Andy Lau is a little old for me.