.mono[b]logue.

Me, Myself And I

Been doing a lot of thinking lately. Hahah.. but then again, I reckon I think too much. Oh well, think that's what staying alone does to you. See!! Told ya.
Anyway, as I was saying, I've been thinking.. about the past. Hmm.. more like reflecting; the bad and the good, the ups and the downs, the works.
I know you're 'supposed' to do this at the turn of the new year but I've been thinking and I need an outlet, so here goes: -

made expensive mistakes, disappointed my parents, disappointed myself, learned the true meaning of love, gained a lot of weight =(, lost some of it (hahahh ;p), made new friends, met up with old ones, was greatly encouraged, had an eye infection, went to Paris, contemplated suicide.. twice, finally felt a sense of belonging, danced, laughed till my stomach ached, cried till my eyes could see no more, worked in a law firm, lost my identity but found it again =), helped a friend, lied (talking about one BIG lie, not those little white ones), told white lies (err..), discovered that clubbing doesn't appeal to me anymore, loved like I've never been hurt before, cried for someone else's pain, gave my heart away, made empty promises, failed my exam, got my heart torn into pieces, received a miracle, contacted long lost friends, underestimated God, realised that Newc isn't so bad afterall, had silly *crushes*, visited the Eiffel Tower (1 down 6 to go), bought myself a C'mas pressie, can't remeber how it feels like to be single, started a blog, acquired a taste for wines, made life-changing decisions, saw Mona Lisa (heh! big deal..), learned to let go, shared a joyous occasion with a friend, spoke to someone from my past, went crazy for everything suede and/or dark brown, met God during the darkest hour of my life, noticed that I was different, was deceived by Mr. S.A Tan (a few times!!), shopped at Des Champs-Elysees, discovered that I've got 3 angels watching over me (am really touched), attended the coolest wedding, realised how precious life is, bought a watch, hid from the world, learned to speak a little Greek, became a chocoholic (it has been 2mths since I started and I just can't stop!!), convinced myself that no one would want me anymore, bonded with my bro (well, sort of), ran after buses and trains (hahah.. still do sometimes), drew closer to God, felt comfy just being me, allowed myself to become vulnerable, hurt the one I love, lost the one I love, behaved like a child, was greatly humbled, acted silly and enjoyed every moment of it, was able to share the gospel with a very close friend, forgave and was forgiven, ate nasi lemak in Newc (yumminess!!), learned to trust God fully, cried in my sleep, tried going on a diet but failed miserably!!, found out that I'm still remembered, was redeemed from the pit, started having nightmares again, was given the opportunity to serve the Lord, lost track of time for a while, became selfless (God's grace), cried in the shower, met up with my confidant, went into a jealous rage, was greatly blessed, carried someone else's burden, got my prayers answered, didn't see the sun for 3 days berturut-turut, felt insecure, made a brother stumble, wish I had said some things, wish I knew how to control my tongue more often, fell in love again, received an extremely precious gift from God (a friend actually ;)), learned to appreciate the people around me, got a tattoo, made 'Banjaran TitiwangsaS' out of.. not even a molehill maN!! more like a few grains of sand (tsk tsk tsk.. impulsive-nya!!), went dancing every night for a week, swore like nobodies business (can't believe I knew so many 'bad' words), met Tim Hughes (*rolls eyes*), shared a flat with a very 'unique' person, nearly got knocked down by a car, fell asleep in the bath.. twice, body surfed, forced to learn to 'love my enemy' (aarrghh!!), learned to love my enemy (definitely God's grace!!)

Think I shall stop. Got lost in my own thoughts and I can't be asked to 'sort them out'. Well, not now, maybe another time.
Hope you had a good read and I apologise if you're bored out of your mind. Hmm.. go munch on choccies or something =p