.mono[b]logue.

Lay Off !!

When you think you're holding up just fine and things are beginning to look good again; new life, new peeps, new purpose, new drive. ANd then!!! Somehow *sigh*, one way or another, the past (stupid!stupid!stupid!) finds its way to you, haunting you and taunting you. That 'can't eat, can't sleep, and if sleep also must creep into your dreams!!' kinda thing.

Right, so you tell yourself, "It's ok, it's just momentary, it'll pass. Just stand up to it and be strong. See your doing fine, just fine..." (YEa, whatever la!!!)
But it gets too heavy, it's wearing you down and you're tired. You look within and realise that you're still carrying the burden, which you soo thought have started to diminish with time. Or have they?? I'm so consfue??!?!? This is irritating!! Like a mosquito that wouldn't stop buzzing!! IRRITATING aH!!!

Bullocks!! I've had it!!

I know what you're trying to do maN!! And it's so not going to work. I'm not going down!! No maN, not anymore. I've got Him and you?? you're just pathetic!! you thrive on people's weaknesses, you sick manipulative.. evil.. sluG!! you lowlife son of.. noboDy!! sCumbag!! I haTE you!!! idiot! idiot! idiot! LeavE ME alonE laaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!