an e-mail from a friend I love dearly

Hi there,

It's been long time since we had our last Wednesday night dinner watching our favourite tv shows, and as usual chatting about our lives and how we feel.

You may be wondering why am I sending u this email and especially at this time of the year. Well the reason is so simple......all of this time (sep-may) I 've been following your journals and I knew exactly how u were feeling every step in the way, I might did n't talk to you about it because I did n't know what to tell u, to make u feel better, or maybe I could n't find the right words to tell u that I know exactly how you feel and I understand you, or maybe because I knew u did n't want to discuss it.

Yesterday I saw your last journal and I believe it is the proper time for me to talk, afterall this is what good friends are for. We might not be seeing each often, we might not talk often and each one of us has separate "social lifes" but this does n't change how feel about you and how much I care about you.

Cheryl I know that u r having maybe the worst time of your life trying to get over something that meant so much to u, but there is one thing that you should know, something that I learned from my own bad experience and that is, if you loose a battle it does n't mean that you lose the war. The war is about life.You loose the war only if you give up yourself, and this is what u r doing, u r giving up yourself.

There was a time that I also believed that I was defeated, that my life was meaningless and the worst, nobody believed in me as I did n't believe to my self too. As I look back to that time I see only sadness, tears, and fear that I am all alone, but I also see the reason which brought me here. I wanted to prove that I can stand on my feet and that I needed nobody to make me happy. I want to prove that not only to others but also to myself who is the least that expects that I can do it. Please proof to your self that u are strong, and that u can make it with or without him.

Eventhough you lost someone you love, there are other people around you who love you and believe in you. There is also someone more important than us who believes in you, and that is God. Even His own Son carried the Cross that he was then crucified, but Jesus did not lose his faith not for a moment. Consider that as your "Cross", and be sure that you will come out of it stronger.

Please be strong and I am sure that at the end you will be a winner, because u may have lost somebody but you found Cheryl, the hero of herself.
The next time you will be looking at the mirror please say to that girl that you see " no more tears, u r not defeated, time for you to stand on your feet."

Also tell her that there is one person who really believes in her, and does not want her to be defeated from anything and from anybody. That's me. We are both walking on the same path, each one for a different reason, but we have to be strong.

Always remember that something that does n't kill us, it just makes us stronger.

Angeliki.

Me, Angeliki & our escapades


steamboat at home, trip to Durham, dinner at Whitley Bay, post-GreekNight