.mono[b]logue.

let go and let God

It's the time of the year again.. yup, to do the reflection thingy albeit being a little late this time around. Hmm.. on hindsight, I was late last year too. Haha.. Oh well, some things just never change.

Right, where was I?
Oh yes, reflect, reflect, reflect.

2005 has been an amazingadventurousawesomeincredibleblowyourmindaway year. Basically, it's been one helluva roller coaster ride. Phewww..

I'm so tempted to not construct proper, comprehensible sentences. Lazy la. Aiyah, whatever la. I'll just go with the flow.

Firstly, I want to say how proud I am to have achieved my 2005 resolution even though my world had to be turned upside down and inside out. Quite happening la I feel, coz only with God and by His strength I was able to live through 2005 and come out a stronger and more mature (eh, inside la. outside i still look very young, k! denial, denial. hehe) person. Boy, what an (i wouldn't call it exciting la, but definitely adventurous) adventurous year it has been. And I felt His presence throughout the year. 'Tis my first time, ever. Incredible!

I reckon the most important lesson I've learned in 2005 is to not hold on to things of this world. The more I hang on tightly to something, the more attached I am to it. And if one day I lose it, I'll hurt more and fall harder. Trust me, I know this for a fact, thanx to my past experienceS.

Therefore, instead of trying to control my surroundings, I have resorted to living each day as it comes, doing my best and giving my all to God.

Right, on to my new year's resolution.

I want to xdevelop and cultivate a spirit of excellence x

Coz you see right, I reckon, and I most probably do live a life of mediocrity. I tend to settle for less (cukup makan can already la) in every area of my life. So now, can not loh.

Why? You wonder.. or maybe not, but just read on for continuity sake.

I usually pray for God to use me for His glory so that the world may see His work in my life and acknowledge Him as God. No doubt, this is still the case in spite of my mediocrity because God takes into account human error and sin as part of His plans and purposes. It is afterall written that His strength is made perfect in our weaknesses. But that is not a valid reason for me to adopt a mediocre lifestyle.

I've told a number of people that out of the 'Seven Deadly Sins', I would be guilty of Sloth. It's like I speacialise in that 'field' la. Quite scary.

Ok, lazy to type already (see, told you!). I'll stop for now and will most likely not continue tomorrow or the day after. Oh well, I'll work on developing a spirit of excellence, can? Sounds so insincere, right? But I'm serious la.

Oh by the way, I've decided to go for writing classes. I enjoy it a lot even though I don't write very well. Think I'll go for some journalism class or something of that sort.

Wah super sleepy man, cannot, must go sleep already. My sleeping time's been messed up thanx to the assignments I had to hand in last week.