.mono[b]logue.

i dunno

Have you ever been sad and not known why?

I don't usually feel like this. I mean, not know the reason behind my unhappiness. It started at the beginning of this academic year. Hmm.. weird. I usually know why I feel down. It's just rare moments like this make me wonder, "Why?". This is probably the 2nd time I'm encountering these mysterious pangs of sadness. Oh well.. nevermind. Thought I'd blog about it since it has been a month I last blogged.

Oh, and one other thing. I do not know why I allow myself to be so affected by one person's mood/reaction/response that my actions do not reflect the person that I am. Well, I don't exactly alter my entire self. I still am very much me but I react in a way that I think would please the other person and it has hindered me from doing certain things, things that I feel God has called me to.

A friend of mine asked, "Who are you trying to please? People (just one person to be exact) or God?" A very valid and simple question, or so one thinks. Ask anyone, even a non-Christian can tell you the 'obvious, textbook answer' right away. But I've learned that in reality, it usually isn't as simple as it appears to be although it ought to be so. By the way, this has nothing to do with why I'm feeling down, just so you know. It's another matter altogether.

Sighh.. life.
Yes, even Christians with all the love and joy and peace, get tired with living...