homeward bound

Will be leaving for the airport at 7am. I'm going to miss Newcastle so much! Hmm.. I've only spoken to a handful of people about this, but there's a high probability that this chapter of my life; UK will come to an end.
*Sniffs*
Anyway, enough about that, I'll just wait and see where God leads me to.

Last Saturday we celebrated *YK's 29th Birthday at *CY's place. *HM bought him this really cool pressie! It's called Rapidough. I've posted some pictures below to entertain you guys while I endure the 14 hour flight to Singapore and then another 30 hours (stopping over at SG for a day) before I finally reach home. Aaahh.. Home Sweet Home. Can't believe a whole term has gone by just like that. *Snaps fingers*
Sigh..

Okie dokes, colourful pictures ensues!

Enjoy!

I've also added two videos at the bottom. The first one was taken by me and the other by *HM, who's so much better at it, by the way. Oh, and if you hear someone speaking rather loudly in the first video, erm.. that would be me. Hehe..

debdeb tagged

What is the one thing that you dream of doing with Jesus Christ if you had all the time in the world and there was no one else in the world but Him and you?

Well, I imagine us walking along a beach. I just love the ocean! It never fails to take my breath away every time I visit one, especially if it's mildly deserted. I'm always captivated by the beauty of the sea, the sky, the sand, the vastness of it all, the smell of salt water, the wind, the light crashes of waves, the whole enchilada..

Right, back to the question. So we're walking along this beach, I can see a few people scattered around and I spot a dog or two chasing the wind. Hahah.. okay, I'm getting to the question =P Erm, I think I'd be lost for words if I saw Jesus. I'd be star struck, no, 'God struck' and there'd be too many things running through my head but He'll be speaking to me, answering my thoughts. I don't see us speaking out loud though. It's as if we are able to read each other's minds and have a proper conversation while taking in the beauty of our surrounding. And then He'd hold my hand, just like how a father would hold his daughter's hand and I'd feel like a little girl again =)

What is the one thing you would do if you could be where your best friend (or super close friend, no need to provide names) is right now?

I would have a sleepover and do what we do best, talk! Hahah. That's the first thing I'm going to do when I reach home on Tuesday! Yay!!

What is the one thing you would start doing if you had a pay/allowance rise?

Travel! For sure =)

ashamed

It's so silly to want to hide from God, no?

I am ashamed of something I did. No, wait, that's not right. I am ashamed of my omission. Yeah. And I cannot bring myself to face Him, you know? I am afraid to reach out to Him because I do not want to see the disappointment on His face. And even if I do, I am in no position to receive His grace and mercy. I know that that is for Him to decide but I highly doubt that God would dish out His grace left, right, centre and back.

I know He promised in 2 Cor 12:19a that His grace is sufficient for me. The word sufficient denotes enough, meaning not too much not to little but just enough. But the Lord wouldn't just dish it out if one were to continuously take it for granted, right? It's like that saying, 'Twice bitten, three times shy'. And who am I to request for His grace.

I know it's so so wrong of me to anthropomorphise God in my but I just don't know. I don't know, I don't know...

I wish I knew how to express myself better but I don't. Oh, and I can kiss goodbye to this.

"sometimes

you love,
and you learn,
and you move on,
and that's okay..."

- Prime

Malachi 3:3a

He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver.

*belovedJoo shared this with me.

This verse puzzled some women in a Bible study and they wondered what this statement meant about the character and nature of God. One of the women offered to find out the process of refining silver and get back to the group at their next Bible study.

That week, the woman called a silversmith and made an appointment to watch him at work. She didn't mention anything about the reason for her interest beyond her curiosity about the process of refining silver.

As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames were hottest as to burn away all the impurities.

The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot then she thought again about the verse that says: "He sits as a refiner and purifier of silver." She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front of the fire the whole time the silver was being refined. The man answered that yes, he not only had to sit there holding the silver, but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the fire. If the silver was left a moment too long in the flames, it would be destroyed.

The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, "How do you know when the silver is fully refined?"

He smiled at her and answered, "Oh, that's easy - when I see my image in it."

(emphasis, mine)

two angels fluttered by


and another two drove...


So, Leo, my fellowship leader, has been cooking and delivering food to us students from the CF who are busy preparing for exams and/or rushing to complete projects/dissertation/thesis. It's truly humbling and in his honour, I decided to post this up (he doesn't read blogs by the way). He was the one who came up with this noble thought a year or two ago, if I'm not mistaken and he and his camaraderie have never failed to personally cook and deliver food to our doorsteps since. It's humbling because he's our fellowship leader, you know? Like, the guy in charge kinda thing. Hmm.. I liken this to Jesus washing His disciples' feet. Okay, so maybe Jesus' act was more hardcore la but Leo's heart is that of Christ Jesus, which is love and humility. I truly appreciate all that he has done and is doing and I also want to say a big thank you to the rest who's been helping out behind the scene.

Also, I thank God for sending angels (my *support group =D) my way even though I didn't want them disturbing me at first. Hehe.. but I'm so glad that I decided to layan them because for the first time, I saw Him, yes, God.

No one has ever seen God. But if we love each other, God lives in us, and his love has been brought to full expression through us.

...for God is love.


- 1 John 4:12 & 8b (NLT)

And I also want to thank God for every single person who has been praying for me and/or helping and encouraging me with your calls and messages and texts and emails and tags and comments and cards. Fuiyoh.. look at the means of communication we have now man. Hehehe. Anyway, if you happened to read this, I'd like to say, "THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH. I DO NOT KNOW HOW ELSE TO SHOW MY GRATITUDE, BUT THANK YOU."

*bows*

HAhahha.. Oscar konon =P

Okay la, I shall get back to work. My dissertation is due on Monday- 22May and my last paper's on Wednesday- 24May and then on Thursday- 25May, I'm going to watch X-Men III. Yay!!! Heheh. You know, I've watched so many different trailers on it already, I bet if I piece them all together, WA LAH! I have myself a movie =P
Oh, oh, aaand I'm leaving for home on Monday- 30May!!! Jealous? Muahahaha...
Hahah. Kebodohan!

Alright then, I'll leave you with some pictures I took recently. Well, recent enough ;)
Enjoy~~

Oh, and thanx for reading, people. Muaahhhsss...

so true, hor?

If we truly understood who God is,
Our praise would be unending.
It could not be contained.

- Stormie Omartian

And I quote Ben,"Indeed."
Heh..

*Lifted this off Shiao En's blog.
I'd link her but I do not know if she'd want that.

His wonders to perform

Thank YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness."

- 2 Corinthians 12:9a

I know this Lord but I didn't want to take it for granted...

I love YOU
I love YOUUUUU
I love YOUUUUUUU
A LOT A LOT

And thank you EVERYONE for your love, prayers, lunches, dinners and prayers and more prayers. Am eternally grateful =)

John 13:34-35

[destress[]distress]

I AM:
so in need of His grace right now

I WANT:
to get IT over and done with
now!
now!
now!
pleasssee?

I WISH:
i was born with more self-discipline!!

I HATE:
EXAMSS!! aarrrgghh!!

I MISS:
the sound of laughter

I HEAR:
my clock t i c k i n g

I WONDER:
if i'll get that extension =S
*edit
I DID!! Thank YOU, Jesus!!!

I REGRET:
being idle

I AM NOT:
going to finish my dissertation!!!!!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

I DANCE:
less now

I SING:
whenever, wherever

I CRY:
alot, ask anyone who knows me personally
super.
emo.

I AM NOT ALWAYS:
as 'smart' as i look, reeeally!!

I MAKE WITH MY HANDS:
a gesture of a gun shooting myself in the head, thanx to *preciousCacing

I WRITE:
poems when i hurt

I CONFUSE:
my words

I NEED:
to do my laundry!!!!

I SHOULD:
get some sun.been cooped up in my room for days and it's eating me away...

I START:
dying from yesterday onwards

I FINISH:
not yet! not yet!!
*bawlsss*

cry of my heart

Please get me out, LORD...

If any of you kind souls out there happened to stumble upon this, could you whisper a little prayer for me, please?

Thank you...

It isn't easy living out someone else's dream.

not again

Their back, my nightmares I mean and they're not the normal kind, if there is such a thing. I'm assuming a recurring theme is common? Correct me if I'm wrong. Anyway, the reason I said that mine isn't the normal kind doesn't necessarily denote that I'm special. Heh. Kidding! Trust me, you wouldn't want to be in my dreams, especially the scary ones. Whom and what I encounter in my nightmares

I do not know how often people have bad dreams when they go to sleep but back home in Malaysia I have them at least twice a week, non-stop for as long as I can remember. I can't exactly recall when it all started but I sorta have a rough idea why they began. It stopped however when I came over to Newc, for a length of time. And then it I had them again although not as frequent.