.mono[b]logue.

dealing with death

If you thought I had weddings after weddings to attend, you're right. What you don't know however, is that for every wedding I've attended, death follows (not immediately).

So far I've witnessed 3 weddings, not taking into account the one I attended in Newc a year ago. Similarly, this month alone, 3 deaths have occurred- 2 of which I know personally and the other is *J's father.

My 2nd uncle passed away recently due to mouth cancer, which had spread throughout his lungs. He was diagnosed with stage4 cancer in November last year and the doctors said he wouldn't live past Chinese New Year but he did. In a way, I'm thankful that he was alive for another 5 months. It gave us time to prepare for his passing. Nevertheless, when the day arrived, it was still very painful to watch him go. My cousin was devastated. It then dawned on me that for a daughter to lose a father is ...
My cousin turned 25 a week after.

*I am the only one (on my father's side of the family) whose parents are still here.

Last week, I found out that *C had passed away. She's a friend of mine in Newc. We weren't necessarily close but we were very good friends. She's only a year older than I am. I don't know much because I've only received emails from friends in Newc and chatted with *B over the MSN. What I do know is that she went into a coma after her liver failed and passed away the next day.

*C suffered from a terrible rash and the medication prescribed by doctors in Newc didn't help her. She would periodically go back to China to get some Chinese herbal medicine for it (she's been taking this for a while). The herbal meds didn't cure her rash but stopped it from breaking out. Some friends in Newc are doctors and they've been gathering evidence to ascertain the cause of death. What I recently learnt is that these so-called Chinese herbal meds are to blame.

You have no idea how pissed off I am with them! Bastards! Just last month ChiaYing and I were talking about how heartless some people in China are. They would do ANYTHING for money, including murder. She told me the World Health Organisation discovered that anti-malarial pills MADE IN CHINA were NOT anti-malarial pills but Paracetamol. One of the symptoms of malaria is fever and Paracetamol helps with the fever. Unbeknownst to the victims however, that is all the 'medicine' does. These drugs are worthless and the number of people who've died consuming fake drugs is insane!

CHINA IS THE SOURCE OF MOST OF THE WORLD'S FAKE DRUGS!

And this morning I received a call informing me of the passing of *J's father.
J is turning 28 next month.

You know what the shittiest thing is?
Being numb.