.mono[b]logue.

can't sleep

Insomnia spells have intensified.

Haven't been able to sleep the whole week.

My religious application of the best eye balm for the past month and a half has gone down the drain.

One week, and everything it has done for my eyes have disappeared, or reappeared (worse than before), depending on how you see it. Relying solely on the balm with hardly any sleep does no good.

It is also taking a toll on my mental health.

"... for He grants sleep to those He loves."

- Psalm 127:2b

the fear you won't fall

Digging a hole
And the walls are caving in
Behind me
Air's getting thin
But I'm trying
I'm breathing in
Come find me

It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home for you

And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

I know you're scared
That I'll soon be over it
That's part of it all
Part of the beauty
Of falling in love with you
Is the fear you won't fall

It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home for you

And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

And I hate the phone
But I wish you'd call
Thought being alone
Was better than
Was better than

And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

Can't get my mind off of you

And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way

- Joshua Radin