Faith



2006 - Jon & Jean's after party




2010 - Jon & Jean's first born, Jayden Joash Kee
possibly the most precious lil' bundle of perfection in all of God's creation

~.~.~.~.~

Conversation over supper:
Speaking my thoughts, I told Al that if I were to be pregnant, I'd want to keep baby safe in my womb, forever- giving birth meant exposing baby to the evil that is this world, which I am so afraid of.

That is when Al mentioned faith- that our faith in God will be the one thing we hold on to and trust when we bring our children up in this world.

It then occurred me that if anything, my baby would bring me closer to God.

The Game



If only it was simpler. I hate being pulled into it.

one year today

It has been a year since you left... forever.
Sometimes I find myself missing you but today, I caught a tinge of sadness.



I used to hate the uncertainty of us. But I've come to accept that it was a choice I made then.
Now, I'm just happy that we got to spend whatever time we had, together.

Of all the years, this was the longest we were in the same place at one time- it was blissful.
Thank you.

Foolish I Am



Met some pretty awesome people over the past week.



What stood out for me was that they were completely at ease with themselves, which in turn made me completely at ease with myself around them.

During my drive home one Sunday, having spent the entire day with them, I reflected on the conversations we had and realised how little I knew.

I was surprised (to say the least) not by the little that I knew but by the 'pride' that I still held on to, which I find incredibly ridiculous after all these years! Can't bear to even specify what it is- so ashamed, too embarrassed.

And having created me, He-who-knows-me-best, reminded me of the invaluable lesson He once *taught me, which isn't very nice BUT is the only way I would learn. Now to drum it into this thick head of mine!


*Will continually be amazed with the way He indirectly uses my surroundings to teach me stuff.